Thursday, February 4, 2010

New Pics...fresh ache

I saw new pictures of my daughter today. Ones taken last week. I wish you could see them! She is so beautiful. Becoming a lovely young lady, without a momma.

22 months we have been waiting.

I sent a letter over with a family leaving tomorrow... just to ask her to keep believing, and we love her and miss her and cannot wait for her to come home.

All the clothes are too small, but we will have fun shopping.

Oh, Lord how long? How about now? Is it time now?

In a Bible Study I am doing with some other ladies, this week, it talked about how hard it can be some times to get to our promise land. That it takes a lot of spiritual muscle building (faith, hope, prayer, trust, grace, believing) to get to our promise. And that is because once we get our promise, it takes a lot of spiritual muscle to keep it from our enemy who is out to kill and steal and destroy.

I know from the experience in the trenches that being a "broken momma of broken children" IS hard! {and wonderful!} And that it daily takes the grace, faith and trust from God, that it took to become a moma.

So I know that. I know these 22 plus months have taught me a lot, brought me further on in healing, and that I have far to go. I know I will NEVER be truly ready. But God's grace will fill the gap. I have to believe, Lord, that she is ready. That she has waited long enough.

Soon, Lord, please, soon.

She wears a cross on her neck, a great reminder in where our trust is.

My hope is built on nothing less than Jesus blood and righteousness.

I dare not trust the sweetest frame but wholly lean on Jesus name.
On Christ the solid rock, I stand,
all other ground is sinking sand
all other ground is sinking sand.


  1. I am so sorry it has been so long of a wait for your little one. I pray often for you and her. I am trusting with you that God's plan is perfect. In the mean time, I pray for comfort for you both.


  2. My heart aches for you, but our children...our prayer chain...our bloggy friends...all know Olivia Mame's name...her name is on our lips in prayer so constantly. I canNOT wait to rejoice with you and celebrate with you and announce to the hundreds, that you don't even know, that she is coming home! Waiting anxiously to see this promise fulfilled...we are SO excited!

  3. Your words are inspiring. Thanks for visiting my blog.
    Your friend Camille of

  4. Hi Sandee, I took those pics of Mame. She had a somber look, but I gave her a hug and told her that I am taking the pics for her mommy, and then she smiled so big. I imagine she is getting tired of smiling for pics. I am really praying hard for your case.